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Name: Miss Diana Kim
Country: United States
State: Connecticut
Birthday: 4/26/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: Reading the Bible. Listening to music. Interested in arts & cultural affairs. Listening to people. Reading. Writing. Thinking. Smiling. Laughing. Trying to learn patience.
Expertise: Intuitive but not a mind reader.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
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AIM:  belladona36
MSN: belladona36@hotmail.com
Member Since:
10/5/2002
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| I seriously wasted my college experience. I should have just picked someone that was interested in me in undergrad. and have been done by now. Dan K., Joanne, and others are probably shaking their heads and laughing because they always told me I wasn't ready. I know I wasn't ready but maybe I shouldn't have listened to them. haha. Seriously, dap dap heh. I really wish I had met someone at Highrock now. I seriously did not realize just how dap dap heh going to clubs and talking to people are, or anything like the NYC scene. I didn't enter my first club until my 20th bday with Diane H, Suhwon, Elisa R, Elisa L. Didn't go clubbing until I came back from college and went like 3 times senior yr. All with Highrock people. Went a few times in 2006, now in 09- so often...haha. Not that it's a bad thing, but I feel like a fish out of water. Haha... nice, nice.
Seriously, I wish NYC had more places to hang out with church people instead of just at clubs or lounges. Whatever.
Emotionally drained.
Not sure if I have the 'cool' to be in the club scene. haha.
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| Some of you guys might know UCLA Brian Lee who used to go to Good News. Here is a mix he put together. I met Brian last August 2008 when I visited football practice once when I was visiting NYC from DC/VA. When he did his rotation in DC, we hung out a few times in DC. Now I'm one of his many promoters... jk. Seriously, awesome mix. I'm honored to know this DJ BLee.
http://www.mediafire.com/file/4gjta4nqy5j/DJ.BLeeV
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| I think I always identify guys that are going to be popular. After experiences though, I hope to find someone who is not popular amongst girls. I don't know if that is possible. haha. I'd like someone that girls do not claw each other over. I'm ultra non competitive when it comes to guys. If I notice someone likes him, I always walk away from the situation. Reflecting back, there have been a few circumstances that I should not have done that, but that is life. I've been doing that for a long time. haha. Growing up, the guys I always liked became big deals later. Or they were always big deals. Either or. lol.
Someone and I were talking last night before the large group and one of the topics that came up was about guys. I was encouraged by what she had to say. We both agreed that after one is good with God does a good relationship develop or flourish. I might have met someone already and I don't know it, or I might meet someone down the line, but it's all in God's time.
I think the thing about being a single girl prior to trusting God recently was I was always feeling anxious and tense if I would be able to find someone that I liked as much as the guy I intensely liked. However, I've come to realize that's not important. I've changed. What I like and what I value has changed. As a friend pointed out, meeting someone is and shouldn't be looking for the perfect resume with a checklist in hand. Instead it should be overflow from God being the center of the friendship and so forth.
Growing up in a big, wealthy church in Westchester NY, I grew up knowing a lot of kids that looked awesome on paper; both guys and girls. However, if I reflect on how many actually were Christian or still are real Christians you can count on a hand, maybe two hands or maybe 3. As a result, my view of what was valued was greatly influenced by the situations, friendships and experiences of growing up in this type of church. In many ways, I have had to learn that what Korean people value in a guy as a good catch is not Godly. It should be totally disregarded but at the same times, the standards should not be based on worldly things alone.
As my friend said for her, she's met someone that she is spiritually compatible with. What does that even look like for me? haha. I have no clue. | | |
| I think I always identify guys that are going to be popular. After experiences though, I hope to find someone who is not popular amongst girls. I don't know if that is possible. haha. I'd like someone that girls do not claw each other over. I'm ultra non competitive when it comes to guys. If I notice someone likes him, I always walk away from the situation. Reflecting back, there have been a few circumstances that I should not have done that, but that is life. I've been doing that for a long time. haha. Growing up, the guys I always liked became big deals later. Or they were always big deals. Either or. lol.
Someone and I were talking last night before the large group and one of the topics that came up was about guys. I was encouraged by what she had to say. We both agreed that after one is good with God does a good relationship develop or flourish. I might have met someone already and I don't know it, or I might meet someone down the line, but it's all in God's time.
I think the thing about being a single girl prior to trusting God recently was I always feeling anxious and tense if I would be able to find someone that I liked as much as the guy I intensely liked. However, I've come to realize that's not important. I've changed. What I like and what I value has changed. As a friend pointed out, meeting someone is and shouldn't be looking for the perfect resume with a checklist in hand. Instead it should be overflow from God being the center of the friendship and so forth.
Growing up in a big, wealthy church in Westchester NY, I grew up knowing a lot of kids that looked awesome on paper; both guys and girls. However, if I reflect on how many actually were Christian or still are real Christians you can count on a hand, maybe two or maybe 3. As a result, my view of what was valued was greatly influenced by the situations, friendships and experiences of growing up in this type of church. In many ways, I have had to learn that what Korean people value in a guy as a good catch is not Godly. It should be totally disregarded but at the same times, the standards should not be based on worldly things alone.
As my friend said for her, she's met someone that she is spiritually compatible with. What does that even look like for me? haha. I have no clue. | | |
| Today I'm taking a rest day. This morning, I considered a job in CT, but upon further thinking have decided to stay in NYC. I haven't slept in at all... instead I have been just processing life. lol. I like to reflect. I've been thinking about what Sunny Pyun last night and what she said about how she knows a lot of girls who have been heartbroken and to be thankful. haha... I am thankful. Trust me I am.
The choices we make shape and mold us. I met someone in 2007, I think. I somehow blocked 2007 out I think. lol. He's Korean drama style wealthy. His father owned the company that Bayer Medicine bought out and is now the worldwide recognized company. They then invested and bought resorts, own banks in the US, created and own the Korean channel broadcasting network in Chicago, had a hotel and other things. He was/is a recognized political leader in Chicago despite his young age. Obama's team considered him for a position on their staff which I now assume he did not get. Anyway, he had so much to offer... and yet, I came to the decision that we were not right for each other. He will write poetry for you, treat you well and is marriage minded. He's still single... if any girl wants to get to know him, let me know. (he's a good guy).
For me, I realized while getting to know him that I needed someone that came from a family that I could feel comfortable about and love and serve. Although every girl and guy wishes to meet someone who'll take care of them financially, I have learned love can compensate for not having any money.
I think Naomi married well. Her friend at first reminded Naomi how they both wished to marry someone that would offer the Tiffanys ring and what not when they were in college. However, Naomi married someone she genuinely loves and serves despite them being poor graduate students right now. I desire that. I'd rather meet someone who is poor but makes me feel loved and protected than someone that has a lot of the ideals but ultimately is not someone I feel is right for me.
Sunny Pyun uhnee was saying to enjoy this time because it's not going to be forever. I am shaped by the influences around me, and in the last two days I have been thanking God that I have not given my heart away yet. I seek out a guy who really will be an awesome friend to me and someone who will also warm my heart with his personality and love for God.
I have also learned one more thing in the last 24hrs. Respecting guys is huge. For the most part, I do respect guys but there's been one person that I have not shown respect to throughout these last 9 yrs. He's one of my closest friends and my brother says I bullied him. haha. In college, I used to make him do everything I wanted. not lol cause he reads this too. Thanks for being one of my closest friends from college to now. Anyway, I decided to turn over a new leaf.
I think I have a lot of guy friends because I do respect them and take care of them as a friend, not as a mother. Guys take care of me too which I appreciate it a lot. I respect guys that are good problem solvers. I like it when they're good at the sciences, math, theoretical or analytical or concrete. I can be abstract or get lost in tangents. But at the end of the day, I am closest to those that are kind to me and someone I can share my problems to. As someone I used to talk to said, "You need to treat each person...even the lowest person or the person you dislike, etc. as a king." That's a good mantra to have... and something I've always intrinsically done. As I get older, it gets harder to do but I will continue to strive for this.
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